It's a real shame when you find out that a scene you thought was completely too hot for words might have been done by an actress that might've been going through real problems and performing in porn was just part of it. Porn does not have to be a negative thing, but when it is, I just find it unappealing. That being said, I have loved many of her scenes, but knowing how much she regretted it, even at the time, just makes it a little harder to watch her scene from
Gangbang Auditions 3.
In a nutshell, here's her story from what research I could do on the Internet. I'm not going to give her real name, it's prevalent enough on the Internet, so if you really need to know it, you can find it. Also keep in mind that I'm just regurgitating what I found by Googling her name. A lot of this comes from
lukeisback.com and various other places that come up in the search.
Aspen had a child before entering porn, but lost it when she became addicted to drugs. She began doing porn to afford the legal help to get her child back, but developed a heroin habit that at time affected her performance. She married porn star and director Buck Adams but saw that relationship fail due mostly to her uncontrolled heroin use. She left porn, got sober, started a new life and family and worked for a time helping women recover from bad experiences with the sex industry.
There are two performances that I want to talk about: One is her talked about
Gangbang Auditions 3 scene where she starts crying. Anal sex can hurt, but why this was left in is beyond me. The director and guys in the scene seem to be trying to accommodate her and make the scene more comfortable, but she carries on and completes it. The breaking of the fourth wall here makes the scene a little hard to enjoy.
Apparently early in her career, she did several sybian scenes for cdgirls.net. They are incredibly hot and her orgasms come across as genuine. They have been marketed as early work from former WWE Diva Stacey Keibler, and the resemblance in one of them is understandable, especially given her small breasts. These are great sybian scenes, and worth watching.
Here is a great compilation of her scenes: